When I was a new born the only focus was to eat and excrete with crying spells in the midst of boredom. As I grew older; toys, gifts, people (in that order) became a fascination. Once I started schooling, focus was entirely on getting more marks, competing with others and ensuring I made my parents proud (!). Teenage years for most people are the roughest - new friends, an undying attention on fashion with ugly faces (pimples, gangly frames, facial hair et al) and proving who's father is the richest of all! As soon as you cross your teenage years, you laugh back at what you were- surprisingly you considered yourself Pretty Hot back then!! You laugh at what your shallow interests were, how shallow & callous your friends were and are so happy at where you've reached right now. At the age of 20 you have more or less decided your career, assuring yourself you will make a difference in this world, not hanker after money and excel at your field. The minute you finish your studies - graduation or post graduation - you jump at offers and are slightly disappointed at how much you get after your first salary (Whatever seemed a lot of money 2 years back while studying , all of a sudden seems as good as zilch). But you carry on thinking you are helping the world. After a few months, disillusionment hits you as you realize not only that you're not making any money but filing papers is not helping save the world. Thats when Crisis 1 hits - Job Change/ Industry Change/ Career change. You again start at the beginning thinking this is IT - have found my calling. But you never do (Wow am such a believer in cynicism!) You keep searching for the one thing that includes 1) A good boss 2)Excellent pay package with perks 3) Work that challenges you but doesn't expect you to stretch 4) Colleagues who are your friends - with no politics at all. Too good to be true? Of course it is!!! Once you make peace with the fact that this is a Unicorn you are chasing, you might, just MIGHT be a little happier albeit with another dark horse lurking in the shadows.
You think finding the right partner might be easier than the above mentioned subjects - but NO. God didn't want to give you anything easy now, did HE. So now you struggle to find Mr. Right - the kind you've heard of or read about (in Mills & Boons of course!) Again, no luck - you meet loads of Mr Wrongs who you initially think is Mr. Right but then sometimes his teeth are too ugly or his bank balance is alarmingly low, someone is toooo clingy, someone is playing tooo hard to get, someone doesn't care about your feelings, someone doesnt care about your parents. So basically it's a dead end. Finally you settle down with someone who is closest to your Mr. Right and you feel like Phewwwwwwww. Finally you are done with stuff. hahahahhaha you would think.
Within a year, financial security, kids planning, kids school.....gawdd...It'll never end.
It is high time we all realize we will never be 'happy'. We will never stop searching for the next thing that is going to make us happy forever. First we want a job, then we say ok a man and thats enough. Then a baby and thats enough. Then the baby needs to grow up quickly so that we can have time. Then "Oh god my baby's grown up so soon - those days were so amazing when all he would do would be sleep and be in my arms"(Ya right!!) How do we expect God to keep providing for our never ending needs and demands. We need to be happy NOW. Not say that we will be happy when we have this - because that will never ever make us happy. (I just want a House - after that I promise you God, I will never ask for anything)
